Inspiration is Everywhere

I have always been someone who is a deep thinker. If you look at me it may not seem that way, but the gears are always going inside my head; continuous scenarios replaying, questions and curiosities, what if’s and why not’s, constantly going without end. I’m one of those people. I am also one of those people who journals a lot. I like to get my thoughts out on paper, especially because I have many of them. Not everyone is up for deep conversations so I am left with my pen and my journal.

It’s interesting though because I never enjoyed writing in school or having to write in a specific format. That’s not a strength of mine, however, after just taking an English course this past semester I was pleasantly surprised at my passing grade AND having one of the third highest percentages in the class. Pretty cool and yes, I’m bragging. ;)

Recently I started reading Jamie Tworkowski’s book titled, “If You Feel Too Much.” Jamie is founder of the non-profit organization To Write Love on Her Arms, a movement dedicated to presenting hope and finding help for people struggling with depression, addiction, self-injury, and suicide (http://twloha.com). This book is deep and raw. It is a compilation of personal stories, e-mails, and essays that let’s people know they are not alone.

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I loved blogging, mostly for fun, but I really enjoyed knowing someone may have gotten something out of it. I haven’t in so long because life can get in the way. That daily routine we all get lost in. Jamie’s book has been a reminder for me to keep doing what I love and to keep my own personal stories going. It has also reminded me to keep inspiring others as much as I can.

“It’s better to be true than to be cool. Be yourself. Do what you love.”

Younger Lesbian vs. Older Lesbian

Just this past weekend I was clearing through my “random/odd-mixed” box of crap. As I was throwing out old junk, I came across rainbow-heart keychains and various buttons (which are all rainbow colors, too) with sayings such as: We Are All Equal, Love is Love, and All Families Matter. This made me laugh out loud. That was the Younger Lesbian.

 

The Lesbian Bat Signal
The Lesbian Bat Signal

Looking at them I remembered my youth, all my curiosity and questions, my coming out, and my NEED to show everyone I was a lesbian. I sported those things everywhere I went; on my purse, my keys (which I used to hang from my pocket), etc. I even had shirts that pretty much screamed I’M A HOMO. For me, I needed to be identified as a lesbian. I finally knew who I was and I needed to show everyone I had figured it out. Even in my appearance, I used to dress quite edgy. I had a tee-shirt with a tie on the front that I used to wear constantly. I made my hair short and choppy. All while showing off my rainbow buttons. Thinking this would make me look “gayer” and give off my gay vibes. Oh, being young…

I haven’t come in contact with any LGBT youth recently, so I’m curious if that need to show your rainbow pride still exists. When I was younger, the LGBT community wasn’t talked about as much as it is today (we’re moving forward, whoop). Don’t get me wrong, I gay myself out for Pride and I do currently drive around with an HRC equality sticker on my bumper. I will always be an advocate. I am part of the LGBT community and equality still needs to be voiced.

As the Older Lesbian, my need to be “rainbow’d out” no longer exists. I look at it as – I am who I am. I like women and I also like chocolate. There’s no difference to me. I actually find all the rainbow stuff now to be quite cheesy and a bit tacky, lol! I still LOVE rainbows, but they don’t need to be plastered on everything I own. I used to want a rainbow flag hanging from my house (whenever I eventually got one), and now I just giggle. I guess I’m a bit more tasteful when it comes to showing my individual pride. :D

Yes, I'm a lesbian, but I've donated the rainbow earrings ;)
Yes, I’m a lesbian, but I’ve donated the rainbow earrings ;)

Please feel free to add your own Young Vs. Old thoughts, I’d love to hear them! This topic just made me laugh. Growing up is such an experience, isn’t it? ;P

“Faking It” on MTV

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Alright. Here’s my dilemma… I don’t know where to begin with this one. First off, I applaud MTV for once again showcasing the LGBT community on their network. Buuuuuuut, I am not too thrilled about how they showcased them.

The premiere/pilot of “Faking It” was just this past week.  As I was cruising the various stations on my TV tonight, I spot two girls kissing and immediately stop my channel surfing. I had to see the whole episode, so as the good dedicated lesbian that I am I went online and start watching it (you can watch it here – http://www.mtv.com/shows/faking_it/video/full-episodes/).

This show is basically about two BFF’s, Amy (Rita Volk, the blondie) and Karma (Katie Stevens, boy crazed brunette) who pretend to be lesbians to gain social acceptance at their super-tolerant high school (which oddly enough is in Texas, granted Austin is supposed to be super hip – so my bro says). Anyway, if I knew being a lesbian was so cool I would have come out a lot sooner! Jokes aside, in the world we live in today, and how far we’ve come with LGBT equality, it’s as if this show is going backwards. Helloooo, be yourself and you’ll get friends that way. Yes, let’s teach our youth to lie and pretend to be someone they aren’t just to fit in. Good message MTV! Wait, let me remember, it is MTV and majority of this station consists of bullshit.

Ok, calm down Katie, there’s still more to discuss.

I haven’t even gotten to the hunky teenage boy who Karma undresses with her eyes every time she sees him. But wait, you’re supposed to be a lesbian, Karma… ugh, so confusing! Anyhow, it’s clear that Amy hates the entire set-up and doesn’t like “faking it” but does what makes her BFF happy. How sweet is she? I can already sense the “Oh shit, I’m a reeeeal lesbian and I’m going to fall in love with my best friend” situation. Anyone else feel that, too? It’s a given. MTV you can hire me now ;)

Long story short, Amy and Karma decide to keep going with the fake lesbian spiel and run for home-coming queens since now they are oh so “popular”. HA, it’s about to get cray! Cue Lauren, all high on her traditions and old-school ways, overhears the girls and how they’re making everyone believe they’re lesbians to fit in. Home-coming speech time comes around and BAM, Lauren blows those fake masks right off

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Wait for it...
Wait for it…
Mhmm, I was sold here too.
Mhmm, I was sold here too.

Sealed with a kiss. The crowd goes wild.

Amy once again comes to the rescue of her dear BFF Karma and plants one right on her. And there you have it… the fakers successfully steal the show. Hmm, but that Amy… after that kiss… you know she was feeling more than she thought she would. Of course. One of them had to or this show wouldn’t exist.

Lesbian Romance Novel “London Calling” by Clare Lydon + Q&A!

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This hot on the press, debut lesbian romance novel has already hit #1 on the UK Amazon Charts after only being released for one day! It’s my job to get the latest and greatest out to you :) So here is a bit about the book including a lovely Q&A with Clare Lydon!

When the plane took off, I wondered what Karen was doing, if she was happy, knew I was leaving or wanted me back. Whatever, it was too late now. I was gone…”

Jess Sharp is at a crossroads – back in London, living in her parents’ spare room,  jobless and single. Not quite the irresistible package she was aiming for at age 32. One night, things take an upward turn when she meets someone who could be a game-changer. However, everything in her riotously chaotic life seems to get in the way, including her best friend’s wedding, far too much tequila and the ghosts of girlfriends past. The course of true love has never been so injury-prone. Will Jess eventually overcome her romantic ineptitude and find her happy ever after? Or will she continue to trip over her own feet in the race for romance?

A cracking debut novel from a new UK talent that zips along with sparkling dialogue and believable, yet original characters.

About The Author

Clare Lydon is a London-based author who penned her first novel at primary school and it scored 9.5/10. She’s still not sure what she was docked half a point for. A lack of lesbians perhaps? 

London Calling certainly addresses that issue, featuring a cast of London ladygays & their mates who Clare hopes are reflective of life in modern-day London. She’s already working on her second book which should be out later this year.

CLARE LYDON –  Q&A

So you live in London?

I do – I love cities and New York is my second favourite. I moved to London in 1998 and have lived all around the place but mainly in Stoke Newington (lesbian central) and now in glorious Greenwich, just a stone’s throw from the Thames.

What inspired you to put your fingers on a keyboard?

I wrote my first novel in primary school – the words, images and cover, plus I even put a bar code on the back. Great attention to detail for a ten year old. I’ve been writing ever since through my work – I’m a journalist & editor – but never took the time to focus on my fiction writing. I’ve had this novel half-written for around four years so I thought it was about time to show it some love.

Any hiccups along the way?

Not really, just that I realised if you put your mind to something you can achieve it. I sound like a self-help manual don’t I? But once I was in the writing groove, I started the next one too and it just flowed out.

Ooo, a next one – so when can we expect that?

This year definitely, hopefully within six months. It’s a completely new and totally different book to London Calling. It’s set in Devon for a start!

Do you have a favorite genre of music to write to?

I tend to write in silence mostly and chatter out loud to myself constantly. But sometimes I’ll select a playlist from Napster and have it playing in the background. I can’t have anything I know the words to though as it distracts me and I sing along. My head is full of song lyrics…

What are you reading at the moment?

I’m just about to start Kiki Archer’s One Foot Onto The Ice which I’ve heard good things about. I’m also really excited to read Nick Alexander’s new one, Other Halves.

Who’s your favorite author?

Alison Bechdel, hands down. I’ve followed her Dykes To Watch Out For series since its inception and her wit, artistry and political astuteness shine through every page. Her subsequent graphic novels have been a treat too.

What’s your guilty pleasure?

Come Dine With Me – my brother lives in Canada and was on the Canadian version which was hysterical. He came second so not too shabby! I also cannot be in the same room as Liquorice Allsorts without eating the lot. It’s impossible.

If you could be stuck in an elevator with any three celebrities, who would you choose?

Kate Winslet, Ellen DeGeneres and Katy Perry. We’d laugh, we’d sing, we’d fight over who gets to play Leonardo di Caprio in the Titanic scene…

Clare Lydon’s debut novel London Calling is out on Kindle now, with other digital versions following soon. The paperback version will be out at the end of April.

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Find out more at http://www.clarelydon.co.uk

To buy: 

US Link: http://www.amazon.com/London-Calling-Clare-Lydon-ebook/dp/B00IN36K6E/ref=zg_bs_275856_67

UK Link: http://www.amazon.co.uk/London-Calling-Clare-Lydon-ebook/dp/B00IN36K6E/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1393519505&sr=8-1&keywords=clare+lydon

Twitter: https://twitter.com/ClareLydon

Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/clarelydonlondoncalling

Wentworth Miller’s touching speech about coming out

Wentworth Miller, star of old hit show “Prison Break”, gave the most touching speech for the Human Rights Campaign about his painful coming out. He talks about what it was like being a gay child, the FIRST time he tried to kill himself at age 15, and being a gay man in the entertainment industry.

Now at age 41, he stands amongst his fellow LGBT community as a role model, a leader, and a man who wants to make a difference. To give those without courage a sense of belonging and knowing that you are not alone.

“Let me be to someone else, what no one was to me.”

What if straight was gay and gay was straight?

Love Is All You Need

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This short, but powerful film has been showing in film festivals for over a year and is now making its debut on the web. One of my friends shared this with me and the moment it ended, I knew I HAD to post it! I am a HUGE anti-bullying advocate as well as an advocate for LGBT equal rights.

From the official website (http://www.towleroad.com/2013/04/watch-a-powerful-film-where-gay-is-straight-and-straight-is-gay.html) it states: “The film, which is about youth bullying in school, is set in an alternate reality where gay and straight are switched.”

Put yourself in someone else’s shoes for a moment and feel what they may feel. What they may be going through. Bullying happens and it’s NOT okay! No one should EVER make another person feel SO horrible about themselves that they contemplate or go through with suicide.

I cried watching this because I know on a daily basis this is happening and it breaks my heart. Please watch and share this video. Spread the word and help put an end to bullying!

Real Talk

I’m going to make this short and sweet.

Today on All My Children, Bianca said the most encouraging words to her girlfriend, Marissa (to read more about them, look under my Pages on the right side of my blog). Bianca has been through the coming out process already and knows what to expect when it comes to people’s disapproval. Marissa asks her how she deals with all of it…

This is what she said:

“I just remind myself that we’re not the ones hurting anyone. I just want what everyone wants, to love who I want to love and without feeling shamed or judged for it. And I deserve that! And you know what so do you.”

I honestly felt these words within my bones. I know what it’s like and this was even a great reminder to myself that I deserve happiness just as much as the next person. This is something we should always take with us through life.